I Think Of How I Just Shot Myself In The Back Again

hello hello hello! sorry i haven't been around for a while. my internet keeps going in and out (sorry for the dirty joke). This is the first time it's been doing okay enough for me to post something.

Well, Friday was the big party. Turns out my person pulled through for me - she got me YARN!!!! and KNITTING NEEDLES! Now i just need to think of what to make with it. Then there was work. I can't even count how many times I messed up while on phones. I worked with Superman, who actually seemed a little depressed. I was kinda happy, and I tried to make him feel better.

By the time he was happy, I was pissed. Don't know how THAT happened.

Yesterday (The first REAL day of vacation) I did nothing all day. Mom and Dad went Christmas shopping twice, and I was stuck babysitting all day. Which sucked majorly, I might add.

Today, my brother got invited to a christmas party hosted by my old sixth grade teacher, Mrs. V. I miss her - she was a good teacher. Mom wants me to go play babysitter and make sure the boy doesn't make a full of himself. It's either that or Gramma's house, and betwix you and me, I've had enough of her house to last a lifetime.

Have you seen the Home Alone movies, where the kid keeps getting forgotten? Ever wonder why getting left behind wasn't so easy? Everytime we go somewhere big, we do a roll call on the porch, and in the car at least twice. No getting left at MY house.

Man, i love Christmas. Not just the presents, but the whole holiday. The anticipation, the movies, the feeling of happiness and completedness. Around this holiday, it's nigh impossible to feel depressed. Sure, they'll be a pang of sadness the day of if my bro don't show, or when the presents are all unwrapped, but other than that, it's all cool.

I'm back to working on THC again. Guy at The Eye Of The Storm (he is MINE, by the way, so no claims from you!!!) told me some things that seemed unlikely, and I fixed it. So I'm at the end, trying to figure out how to write the next piece.

I'm listening to All I Want For Christmas Is You by MCR (of course). My biggest wish this year? I want my brother home. Even if it's only for a day or an hour or a week, I just want him for a minute.

I just want to see my baby standin' right outside my door . . .

~Jink